when i should be spending my times now on studying for tomorrow final exam
i wasted all my days filled with dreams and imagination that keep running through my brains.
the thought that make me my mind paralyzed is still there..
is some how worst than anesthetic given by the doctor
the feelings that cant be described any longer
neither do i know what is that feelings that keep haunting deep in me..
the time when i cant differentiate between black and white
the time when i cant see any sunshine ahead
what is changing now?may i ask.
perhaps,its me.
if it is me then what kind of changes is that?
i dont think is a better ones if there is any.



*i need booze or some hard alcohol to hit me down..anyone??